Last week was my second official week working full time!
I haven’t worked full time since 2012 when I had Emma. I became a SAHM because Emma had lots of appointments and therapies, and we knew it was the best decision for me to be taking her at the time. Darrick and I made the decision early 2013 that I would stop working, focus on income from my blog and he would continue to work outside of the home. This was supposed to be the plan for a couple of years! We also discussed having another child, and in 2013 I was pregnant by the end of the year. That pregnancy ended in miscarriage, and in early 2014 I found out I was pregnant again, and later found out it was twins (and I’ve talked about our twins story, quite a bit…but, if you’ve never read it click here).
In 2016, I started working part-time and from the first couple of weeks, I knew in my heart that this job was more than a short-term position. About 6 months after I started, I applied for a part-time position as a coordinator and I got it. But what I didn’t realize was that it was A LOT of work for a part-time position person. I fought hard for the position to become full time, however, at the time the Director was not trying to hear it! It wasn’t until we had a change in our Director that she came in and learned of my position and she fought for me!! And last week it came full circle…Mama is now full time!
Honestly, with everything that happened in getting my position full-time, there were times that I questioned whether or not it was meant to happen. I prayed about it and I knew that only God could make this happen but once it was in place I must admit I still had my doubts. I questioned being able to be there for my children like I needed and wanted to be…and honestly being away from my little ones for 8 hours a day, is this the right thing to do! Mom Guilt set in and there were LOTS of tears.
I knew being full-time was the best financial decision for my family, but I was more nervous about being away from my babies all day and coming home later in the evening.
Working full-time also came with a lot of guilt when it came to blogging. Although I put my all into blogging in 2015/2016 and had my highest income years EVER, the following year was a lot slower and found myself wanting to go back to consistent income. My initial goal was to become a full-time blogger, and while that is still a goal of mine, right now wasn’t the best time. And now that I have been a SAHM I truly understand all the planning that needs to go into making a huge lifestyle like that!
Blogging makes great money, however, the money is inconsistent and I longed for more stability. However, now that I am back to working and getting paid on a regular basis I must say the ideas and topics are coming back and I am finding myself coming out of the blogging rut (writer’s block) and wanting to get back to writing from the heart!
I have returned to my love of writing and having an outlet! So now you should see more post around here because I have found new motivation and inspiration!
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Overall I know that I made the best decision! I really like working in Higher Education, and my coworkers are absolutely amazing! I couldn’t have asked for a better staff to work with! The saying is always that you are with your work family more than your own family so I will say that I have hit the jackpot with my working family.
