When I dreamed of the days of having children, I often saw myself as working mom. I wanted the corporate career and a family! Then when I found out we were having Emma I still thought that I would be the working mom, the goal of corporate career changed to working in Higher Education but nonetheless I would still be a working mom! I never really wanted to be a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom), nor did I see myself becoming a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom)…but once she was born in couldn’t imagine going back to work.
But I pushed through and made it one more year working outside of the home and taking care of Emma, despite her having one of the roughest years of her life!
I stopped working in January 2013 and honestly there were times when I wished I had a paycheck buy I really liked being at home with Emma.
Fast Forward to 2014…
The twins were born and with all the complications with Darrick II made me even more grateful that I was able to be home SAHM, I was able to take care of Emma and DJ and get to get to the hospital to spend as much time with Darrick as I could…Sometimes even multiple times a day!
Now Emma is in school for a half day then off to therapy she goes, DJ is home with me for a half day then with my parents once Emma is out of school…and I work part-time out of the house!
To say this has been an adjustment is an understatement!
I am forever grateful for Darrick and I support system! Especially them helping out with Emma going to therapy…but the Mama in me wishes I was the one taking her. She has a new group of therapists that I haven’t met yet. My husband and mom rotate the shifts and I complete paperwork and set everything up. And sometimes my sister (since she works from home) will help my mom and take DJ off her hands for a couple of hours! And I am TRULY grateful!!!
I know that working is helping my family too but I wish I was able to help them more by having full-time income through my blog so I can be present 100%!
And it’s not that I have a bad job because I work with some of the coolest group of people I’ve ever met; that have made me feel apart of the family from the 1st day! My supervisor is cool…and very easy to talk to!! It doesn’t get any better than this…BUT I do miss being home with my children!
In talking on a friend a couple of days ago she said it makes you a better mom when you can get away for a few hours or for a long weekend away from your kids! And although I know this is true, my heart still misses my munchkins during my 4 hours I am away from them!
Take a glance of pictures hanging up at my desk, to put myself in check and remember by “WHY”…
Once you check yourself and remember WHY you are working, or the overall goal is for myself and my family I soon put everything in perspective! I would do anything for the betterment of my family; so I understand right now that no matter how I miss being home full-time I have to work to help us be able to live the life we would like to live!
