This is a hard one for me to write but its been on my chest so I must go ahead and write about it!
I titled this post acceptance because that is the topic that this post is about. My acceptance of being a mom of a special needs child. Sometimes I don’t really like “titles” I feel like they tend to follow you around and its not always in a good way. With Emma I tend to explain to people that she was born with a cleft lip/palate but I don’t want that to define her life (or label her)! When she gets older I want her to be proud of who she is and everything that she has gone through…and be thankful for all of her ups and downs because through all of this I know this is molding her life for who God wants her to be!
This is “Emma’s Testimony” as well as my husband and I. We all have a testimony out of this and for each of us it will be different! But as I sit here and think more and more about my munchkin I have to accept that I am a “special needs mom”. I don’t really like saying that because I feel that Emma is perfect, and she is but in reality she has some special needs that we are taking care of (which makes me a special needs mom). I think when I am around other moms and kids I tend to compare Emma and hitting her milestones and sometimes that motivates me to work harder with her (which isn’t a bad thing) but it also makes me question our situation. “Why Us”…why couldn’t our daughter be born with no problems, hit all her milestones in the right time…WHY!!!! I know everything happens for a reason and God has blessed with Emma for a reason…but sometimes its just hard to accept everything! Its hard to accept “our situation” as “our normal”…
So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For the Lord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you. Deuteronomy 31:6
So “Why Not Us”…God has this all planned out and he knew that times would get hard but Darrick and I could handle this together! So with that said we will continue to do what is for our “special needs daughter”….and BUMP the titles! We are D*MN Good Parents to a PERFECT little girl (weren’t expecting that to end that way were you)!!! HA!!!
