Darrick and I have always been SUPER close! Ever since we became a couple, we literally became that couple that if you saw him you saw me or vice versa. We were like this WAY before we got married and it has continued to be that way even after having Emma. This past weekend Darrick and I went away for a night to Pittsburgh which is about an hour and a half away from where we live.
During the beginning of the trip I had a little anxiety about leaving Emma, I mean we are always together. I know its healthy to get time away for just my husband and I, but the next morning Darrick woke up and said he was ready to get back to get Emma. We ended up talking a little more and basically we both had the same feelings, its fine leaving her for a few hours but this time neither one of us wanted to leave her. I told him I guess we have to do better communicating with this because we could’ve brought her with us. Now I was trying to be a “big girl” and not get super sad about leaving her but when I found out Darrick had been feeling the same way, I was upset because I knew I should’ve went with my first mind kept her with us! She was fine here at home with her grandparents and the couple of hours that she spent with one of her uncles, but instead of both of us having mixed feelings we could’ve been completely comfortable with the three of us together!
I did learn a lesson in all of this and it was next time I have some mixed feelings, take her with me! Although we had a great time, we have great times when Emma is with us too! And once she is older we probably will be more comfortable with leaving her than we are right now! One thing is for sure, if I go anywhere outside of the city limits my child will be in the backseat! I feel like I get enough time away for “me time” and for “mommy/daddy time”…so I shouldn’t try to force time just wait until I am comfortable with leaving her!
Are these “new parent” feelings? Or do you always have these feelings when leaving your child (no matter the age)?
