Never would I thought I would say this but at this moment I wish I could stay at home with my daughter full time! I would love to wake up daily, see Darrick off to work, make dinner, clean the house, take my online classes, work with her and her milestones then get up the next day and do it all over again! I wrote a post a while back about “wanting it all” and now I am at a place where being a SAHM would work perfectly. Honestly, I want Emma to see me get up daily and go to work and learn that there is a way to balance having a family and having a career…however, with Emma being born with a cleft lip and palate things have totally changed my mindset. Many don’t know that when a child is born with a cleft lip/palate there is MUCH more to the situation besides having surgery.
Babies with cleft lip/palates have a hard time gaining weight, ear problems, reaching monthly milestones, and sometimes they tend to have other problems with learning and such. I can happily say this hasn’t been the case with Emma…so far we are reaching all of our milestones. She is almost to the point of sitting up on her own and we work with her daily on that! We have been to the audiologist and this is the second hearing exam that she has PASSED!!! WHOOP WHOOP!!! But I will say that although she is reaching her milestones, we still have tons of doctors appointments that we go to on a regular basis! And I wish that my time off with her was more than just going to doctors appointments. Even though her father does a GREAT, FANTASTIC, SPECTACULAR (I could go on…he is really AWESOME with her) job at keeping her in the morning until he drops her off to her uncle…I still wish I was the one at home with her feeding her and doing the daily routines with her! I see Emma when I get up for work, then I get her when I get off!
(who wouldn’t want to stay home with this silly girl)
Darrick and I are in the process of arranging a few things so I could possibly stay home and work part time…but we shall see! If its God’s Will it will happen…if not I will continue to work full-time! I still want my career which is why I am currently in school for my Master’s but I wish at this moment in life I could just take classes, take a break from working, and stay at home with her until I finish school!
Wishful Thinking…Huh?
