WARNING…this blog is a bunch of random thoughts so please bear with me!
Well my little munchkin is still in the hospital, but I will say she is doing a lot better with her feedings! We have tried many bottles, and I think we are back to using one of the first ones we tried. It took a lot for me to post her picture on my blog, showing her lip. I asked Darrick to see how he felt and he was okay with it too…We are very protective of everything going on with her right now, so I have been unsure if I wanted to post a picture of her cleft lip. But I think she is soooo stinkin’ cute so I couldn’t resist!!! Little Miss Emma is three weeks old, but she has mannerisms like she is older! She has a feisty personality and its so funny because when she gets upset, she really gets upset!! There is no in-between! LOL!
Currently, I am trying to figure out a few things in life. Like how I can go back to work after maternity leave with her needing special attention until she has surgery. I know many moms take off for an extended amount of time, so right now I am praying for an answer to come to let me be able to handle everything! Should I try to go part-time, or should I find a part-time job??? Having Emma has been a wake up call on a number of levels, its really been an experience of putting her first in everything Darrick and I do! Darrick and I are also learning lessons of how to stay on the same page even when times get tough. Things have been very stressful but through everything communication is the MAJOR key to overcoming any obstacles!
I am also debating on if I want to go back into my Higher Education program in school. I ended up having to drop my last class I was taking because it was too much to handle and have a baby. So I dropped my class and now I am debating on if I want to change my major and go into another program or not. I know this will cause me to be in school a longer but I guess being happy in the end is the major factor! This is a decision that I have a while to make, considering I’m not enrolling back in school anytime soon…but I must admit it is bothering me a little bit. Being in the hospital on a daily basis and being around all the children, I think I want to work more with kids, and becoming a teacher is something I have always played around with but never went for it. So I’m considering going into a program that I can get my masters along with my teaching license. I guess thinking about this gives me some since of normalcy since I’m at the hospital everyday!
So I think this is all of my random thoughts…well at least the major items that I have been thinking about (Emma, Darrick and I, Work, and School)…
